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Do you ever feel like you're the only bright spot in a day of darks. People, I mean. Nothing personal intended, but I got the sense that several of the people I ran across today - or who ran across (over) me and my cheery disposition wouldn't even think to smile, not even if I suddenly kicked off my shoes, stood on my head, and offered them a 20 between my big toes. ... Ok. So it really took only a few people being glum and cross to make my cheeriness feel surpressed feel spurned, so it was hardly everyone that I met today being down. Just thought I should make that clear. It would be seriously awful if it really was everyone.

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Had lunch at Wendy's by myself, and that cheery mood plunged me into profundity somewhere between my first coke and the refill. It started with hearing a song on the radio in the dining room. I heard the intro and my breath breath caught for a sec. It's one of those songs where you have to be completely still to really listen, but underneath your skin your body ripples to the beat like a bass speaker bounces inside its cabinet. The secret revel makes you feel as if something wonderful is going to happen.
...anticipation
...Or maybe something did. Yeah. 'Cause you just tasted beauty. Deeply.
...You felt.

I know feeling isn't anything new, but how often are we lost to ourselves enough to feel that deep? Could be just me.

Then Kelly Clarkson came over the speakers. Since U Been Gone. Oh yes.

I walked out of Wendy's after getting that refill and saw my car window had fallen (the mechanism is busted). "And why didn't I notice?I did sit at a certain table so I could see if this happened. Don't want the car broken into or rained into. But NO!" I'm laughing at myself. "Lost. Totally gone amongst my thoughts. Yeah. I'm hopeless." Laughing again.

The profundity continued, but it'll have to wait. No worries. I took notes!


"Dost thou groan? I defy thy scorn!"